FYI

Just so you all know, I've lost my phone...I think it's at the wallmart.  I think it fell out of my purse while we were shopping last saturday.  I haven't been able to go see if they have it yet, or call for that matter...

So I have no phone, you can't call me.  If any of you need to contact me, e mail is the only way :(

Too much

Ok, I took this one down because it just feels like to much honesty for a tuesday morning...

Sigh

I'm feeling really awful today.  I fell down the stairs yesterday, all the way down from the top.  I bruised my hip bone and thigh really bad.  So...I didn't get much sleep last night because every time I'd roll over there was lots of pain.  So I woke up this morning and it's painful to walk, my head pounding away like some kind of demented jack hammer and my neck sore.  

It's going to be a very long day I can tell.  I wish I felt better because it looks like it's going to be a beautiful day outside.  And today, of course, is going to be one of the incessant "I want" days from the girls...

" I want this, I want that, mommy, mommy, mommy..." but of course all of this is said in the high whinning voice that every mother hates.  And of course from Beeba the screaming tantrums when she dosn't get her way.

Pray for me...today is just one of those days when I don't think I can do it all.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I'm incredably nauseaus to just add the cherry on top of all the other wonderfulness of the day.

Hmmm

Sometimes I wonder about Emi.  I actually gave her a donut for breakfast this morning.  Now this is something unheard of in my house, it's usually the normal cereal or eggs or some other kind of nutrious thing I try and get them to eat.  But this morning I was tired and Ron had bought donuts the other day so I decided they could have one for breakfast, anyway, I digress...

I gave her a PINK frosted donut to eat and what does she do with it?  Any guesses?  She refused to eat it, said she didn't like it!!!  She didn't even take a bite of it, now I'm just wondering how many children you know who'd pass up a pink frosted donut...

Flashback Friday!

Welcome back to Flashback Friday, hosted by the lovely Miss Tara!  I'm getting back into the swing of things and thought I'd play along this week.  Sorry, I have nothing "eastery" to share but instead I thought I'd share my most favorite picture of me of all time.  

and while it's not particularly eastery I am wearing a beautiful yellow dress and a green cardigan...so it's very springy, don't you think?  This is me on my 21st birthday.  And yes, I was *gasp* smoking, a nasty habit that I gave up many years ago.  But I was happy then, and care free and I think_beautiful.  I don't generally like pictures of myself but this is one of my very favorite.  

I've been meaning to post this

for weeks, but well, life seems to have gotten in the way.  As some of you may know, my granma died in December from cancer.  She was like a second mother to me when I was growing up, when my mother was a single mom working 2 jobs to try and support us it was my granma who took care of us.  She lived right down the St from us and almost all of my earliest memories contain her.

I was born in a small town in Florida called Crystal River and my granma, Sharron, was my father's mother.  My biological father wasn't such a nice man, but it wasn't becuase of his mother or his stepfather, my grandpa Ray.  They were/are amazing, loving and kind people.  My mother remarried when I was 8 and we moved to St Petersburg.  We still drove down and visited my grandparents often.  My dad (my step father but I refer to him as my dad because he raised me) was in the Coast Guard and we left Florida when I was 14.  

All that background is just to say that I never saw my grandma again.  Never went back to see them.  She never got to meet her great grand children, I never got to say good bye.  We were in contact over the years, phone calls and e mail.  But I will always regret the fact that I didnt' get to see her again...

My grandfather sent me this beautiful ring in the mail several weeks ago.  It is my legacy from her, this beautiful ring.  I wear it always now and think of her whenever I look down at my hand. 

I see a light

So I had a Dr's appt this morning and I'm ver happy with the way that it went.  I really like my new Dr.  I got a female this time, not that I didn't like my old Dr but I just felt that a female would understand my problems and have more empathy than a male and my old Dr is in Plesant Grove, not really to covienant to Orem.

Anyway, I'm really happy with the way it went, I got to talk to the Dr and a NP that she's training and it was great!  They perscribed me a new anti depressant, wellbutrin, and if this stuff is as good as it sounds than I'll be all set.  It's not an SSRI (selective seretonin reuptake inhibator) it's a norepinephrine and dopamine reuptake inhibator.  It's supposed to affect the pleasure centers of the brain and help with motivation, something I've been severly lacking.  It's also supposed to help with chronic fatigue and get rid of the sexual disfunction I've been having (sorry if that's TMI).  So I'm really hoping it works, I've got my fingers crossed!

I also got a prescription for my headaches/migraines that I'm happy about too.  It's called fioricet...so if any of you have any experience with it, I'd love to hear your feedback.  The biggest plus of it is that it's safe to use while nursing, woo hoo!

So, today I have a brighter outlook than I did yesterday and I am starting to see some light.  Also, my income tax return was deposited in my bank account this morning, woo hoo!  What a day, I think I'm going to buy a sewing machine tonight :)

I lied...

I do have recent pictures of Eden, I just forgot and didn't bother to look yesterday.

She climbed up in the chair all by herself and was so proud that she had to call me from the other room to show me what she did.

Playing at the Gateway Discovery museum.

Naked butt before  bathtime.

I do have recent pictures of Eden, I just forgot and didn't bother to looke yesterday.

Easing back into it...

So I'm easing myself back into it all.  I've started following everyone's blogs again and hope to be back to posting on a regular basis soon.  I'm seeing the Dr on Friday morning so I'm hoping to be feeling better soon.  

Beeba little Annie, Annie little Beeba

The girls, Emi and Annie had a sleepover with their Uncle Jeff and Aunt Elise a couple of weeks ago and she made these super cute collages of some pictures she took while they were there. 

Emi is such a little ham and loves having her picture taken.  She'd pose for you all day long if you wanted her to.

Unfortunatly, I don't have any recent pictures of Eden but I'll take some soon.  She has 3 teeth now the bottom 2 and one on top and is going to be getting the second top one any day now.  Teething has been really hard on her.  She can walk well behind push along toys now, too, she loves crawling up the stairs after her sisters and is quick to do so if I leave the gate down for a minute or two.  She's still a tiny little thing at only 15 lbs and 8 ozs but she's strong and healthy and is ready to be running around with her sisters.

Hello...

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still alive.  I'm just going though some stuff right now and keeping up with my blog and everyone elses has just seemed like to much to deal with right now.  I thank all of you for your caring emails and for checking in with me.  I hope to be better soon...

2 year olds and scissors do not mix...

After seeing mommy cut her hair yesterday, Annie decided that she needed one as well.  Lets just say that it didn't turn out so very well, shall we?  

I'm sorry but mullets are not an acceptable hairstyle for any of my children.

Here she is looking super cute after I fixed it for her.  So this makes her a Darla supporter as well!!  It was really upsetting to have to cut off all her pretty little curls though, I hope they come back...

New do.

Ok, so I know it's been awhile since I've done any kind of serious post or talked about life.  This is one of them.  As the title suggests I have a new haircut.  But it was a hair cut for a very special reason.  As some of you  may know my grandmother died of  cancer 2 months ago and now a good friend of mine, Darla, has breast cancer.  She's been sturggling with it for 2 years now.  It was in remission for a while but now has come back.  She has it in her hip, her liver, her lungs and just recently found, some in her ribs.  She was taking some pill form of chemo for awhile that didn't have as many terrible side effects as the IV form does (like losing your hair).  But now with the cancer being found in her ribs she needed to have more radiation and start the IV chemo.  

So in support I've cut my hair and am donating it to Locks of Love.  So I put it all up in a pony tail and cut it all off, 13 inches of hair being donated.  

I know it dosn't look like it but that is really 13".  I measured it 3 times.

Of course this picture you see above you was NOT what it looked like yesterday after I butchered it all up.  I tried to do it myself and lets just say it didn't look so great.  So this morning I went over to my neighbor Diana's and she cleaned it up for me and made me look presentable. Bless her!

It's been a long time since my hair was this short and last time I have to say that I was like 60lbs lighter!  But never has it been for a better reason.  We love you, Darla and we're behind you all the way!!!

Pipe Wrench Fight!!

My friend Lori sent me the link to this video yesterday and I thought it was so funny I had to share!

Take on Me: Literal Video Version - watch more funny videos

The Winner is...

YOU!
Now you too can be a winner like me! Lucky you! 
The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me! My choice. For you.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
1- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
2- What I create will be just for you.
3- It'll be done this year. (might be December 31st, but you WILL get something)
4- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a story. It may be poetry or an article on properly cleaning your face before a masque. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
5- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange :)

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you must repost this on your blog and offer the same to the first 5 people who do the same on your blog. The first 5 people to do so and leave a comment will win a FAB-U-LOUS homemade gift by me!
Happy commenting :)

Ugh

...and just like last friday I forgot to mention that Flashback Friday is being hosted by Tara.  So swing on by and play along or take a stroll through other memories.