The winds of change,

Are once again at work in my life. I have to say so far this year has really freakin sucked! I was in the hospital, Ron had his appendix out and now yesterday he got fired. He went into work and was home a couple hours later and when I asked him what he was doing home he said "they fired me for no reason". Just like that the world turned upside down, no more health insurance and no more security. I mean seriously, he went into work asked to talk with him and handed him his termination papers, no reason given and I'm kinda pissed off that he didn't demand a reason. I sure as hell would have! I'm calling his boss today and asking him why, I think we deserve an explination. And if he signs a paper saying that he won't sue them for wrongful termination or breach of contract they'll give him 6 wks severance pay and cash out his 401k.

So, we should be ok with money until he finds a new job, it's just there is no way of knowing where this new job will be. There are a handful of other game companies here in the Salt Lake area so we'll see what they have to offer first. There is also a few really big software companies here, Ron dosn't really want to work for a software company and would rather be making video games he says that with his experience and qualifacations he could be making twice what he was working at Chair. I don't want to have to move, I hate moving. I'm also 6 months pregnant and already having enough complications that I don't want to have to deal with the stress of moving right now. It's just not good for me, or anyone else.

He went and interviewed with 2 other game compaines here in Orem yesterday afternoon, but dosn't think that either of them would be a good fit for him. We'll see what comes of it all...

Not so very Bitter, anymore...

I am so bitter right now.  I know that Mother's Day is a totally manufactured holiday, but come on it's one day out of the year when us overworked, under appreciated moms get a bit of the recognition that we deserve.  Everyone, that is, except me, I guess.

I am feeling so upset and depressed right now.  I was up at 5:30 this morning with an unhappy, not feeling well baby.  That was ok, it's not her fault she dosn't feel good.  Thing 1 and Thing 2 got up about 9 and I tried to get Ron to get up and make them breakfast so that Eden and I could take a nap.  He rolls over, grunts at me and started snoring.  Then comes the incessent 

"Mom, I'm hungry"

"Mom, I'm thursty"

"Mom, I want my vitamins"

"Can we have some chocolate, can we have some candy?"

I've got the mother of all headaches right now, Thing 1 and Thing 2 are having crackers for breakfast and I didn't even get stupid flowers.  Or the nap I so desperatly need right now.

I hate everything right now.

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Fast forward an hour and a half.  I'm feeling much less bitter about everything now that he's finally awake and out side smoking jerky :).  

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Ok, the day most definietly did not get off to a very good start.  But got much better.  After a nap my outlook on the world improved 5000%.  Sleep deprivation never brings out my best side.  Ron got up and was great after that and as I said above is making jerky today.  My mood has been on a very severe roller coaster these past 2 weeks.  I haven't been able to refill my perscription for the wellbutrin so I've been dealing with the nasty withdrawls.  Which just let me say are no fun at all.  I'm insanely moody and irratable.  

I haven't been able to refill it because our HSA (health savings account) sent us checks instead of a debit card, which the pharmecy at wallgreens won't take.  And we don't have the money to pay out of pocket for it right now.  At least not until Thursday.  So until then I get to be scary, emotional, crazy woman.

Thank god for my anxiety pills though!