I think I'm defintaly going through with drawls from not having my celexa this past week. I thoght it would be fine not to take it for a week or so. But I'm really starting to notice some side effects from not having it. I have no energy and I'm lethargic I've also had an almost constant head ache this past week. And today I've been having these electric shock kinda feelings. I can also feel my mood declining. I'm starting to get that feeling of hopelessness again. But with nothing really to feel hopeless about...
I'm feeling pretty isolated here. I met a few of my neighbors and they're really nice, especially, my new next door neighbor. She has a little girl named Gentry who's 3. I just need to work up the energy to go and visit. Sometimes making new friends is so tiring. Which is such a strange thing for me to say, I love to meet new people. I'm a very socialble girl, usually. I just want my old friends right now, people I don't have to explain things to, people who already know me. It all is just so exhausting, I don't even have the energy/will to reach out.
Annie and Eden are sleeping right now so I'm going to go and spend some one on one time with Emi. I feel like I've been a terrible mother to her this last little while, it just feels like I'm always yelling at her, always angry with her. I need to breathe and just let somethings go...she's into EVERY thing all the time.
3 comments:
Hang in there, I feel your pain with the process of moving and meeting new friends. Just take a deep breath and take one thing at a time.
You need to get back on your medicine so you'll feel better! Just try to remember it's not you.. you have a disability you can't control and that can be overwhelming. Take the time to work through it... and remember eventually you will come out on the other side. And if you need ANYTHING let us all know... we're all here for you!
P.S. Your daughter is just so beautiful! Thanks for sharing the picture.
Also a very happy birthday to Emily!
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